Wanted: Perfect Friend

Next to finding my very own prince whom I'd always prefer to be smart than charming, having those perfect friends who would always say the right words, let you eat more than half of their meals, laugh with you till your stomach distends with air, invite you for a sleepover, share a hundred of their secrets, and give you the tightest hugs is my next childhood fantasy. Thanks to movie and television shows that features those kind of friends.


But just like the guy who kissed the white girl who can't chew an apple first before swallowing, friends in the big and small screens doesn't exist.


You see, hoping to stumble upon a group of friends who'd never piss you off or make you feel bad falls in the box impossibilities.


A perfect friend and an unflawed friendship don't exist.


It took me two decades of hoping and losing hope to finally realize and accept that.


Back in high school where cliques are as common as online shops nowadays, I've always wanted to belong in a group. To be noticed and appreciated. To not be a poor loser in the background who does nothing but scribble abstract lines until the bell rings or the next class will begin.


Looking back, I felt more like a loser than a loner in the background.


I've always been looking out for perfect friends but I fail to look and ask if I were a perfect friend myself.  And honestly, I know I am far from being a perfect friend.


Failed friendships and lost friends were my proof to that.


I felt ashamed. How selfish could I get? Wishing for a perfect friend when I myself is not.


Thereis no such thing as a perfect friend or a perfect relationship with your chumies. There will always be a bad day between good ones. Let's not taint the good memories and define friends in a box.


Each friendship is crafted special. Our friends may not be there to meet our expectations.But we too, we make mistakes. We come late in appointments, make lame excuses, run out of advices, too sleepy to talk and too difficult to understand.


In the end, I think it still boils down to compromise, respect and willingness.